August 2nd/3rd 2019
This is the first time in over a year that I’ve missed my post date
I’m in the car on the way home from my boyfriends and I realized that I missed my Friday post. This is the first time in as far back as I can remember that I deviated from my schedule in any way and the perfectionist in me is screaming.
However, I think this is a really good lesson in learning to find balance in new situations. With a new job, a second job, a new boyfriend, and some social plans coming up, I am really struggling to find balance where I would like.
I think it is largely a motivation issue because, when I do have free time, I have issues motivating myself to do what needs to be done. It’s not that I didn’t want to blog today, it’s just that I didn’t want to use my hour at home for the day to write a post. I planned on getting it done though, but time escaped me a bit.
But this hang up has actually reminded me that I really love blogging and do it because I want to and not because I have to. Because, if I was doing it because I had to, I wouldn’t feel nearly as driven to be writing this post at past midnight. I am writing it because doing so makes me happy.
I am going to find balance in new things by doing more of what makes me happy~