August 5th 2019
Filling you in on where my head has been at lately.
As of late, I haven’t exactly been the most proud of the quality of content I have been putting out on here. Which is a bit ironic considering the fact that a lot of my recent posts have been performing particularly well. I once had a friend tell me that he feels as though my blog posts are always really well written and put together and can never tell when I’ve “skimped out”, which I guess is a good thing but I still notice and get sort of down on myself as a result.
I have been in such a mood to put out really great content on here lately but adjusting to life with 1 new full time job, 1 part time job, a new relationship, and still getting a grasp on the whole “living in a new state” thing, I have found it a bit hard to get myself writing. One of my biggest problems is that, despite so much happening in my life at once, nothing is really “happening”. I haven’t really done many blog-worthy things in the past couple of months, so I sort of feel at a loss for content. I have even fallen behind on my blog schedule spreadsheet because I have been writing so haphazardly (and, if you know me, I live and die by the spreadsheet).
In some ways, this break from my routine has been good because I have spent a lot of time off social media and out in the real world. But there are definitely moments of my day where I feel like I am living a life that doesn’t feel 100% authentic to me. Adjusting to a corporate environment has been really hard on me and, as much as I want to succeed and prove myself, I am not as passionate about my corporate life as I am about my part time job and creative endeavors and it shows (mostly to me, no one else seems to notice my lack of passion because I consider myself to be pretty driven and present myself as such).
So what I want to do may seem weird to some people, but instead of taking a break from blogging, I am actually going to try to hold myself to a higher standard from now on. I love writing and love engaging with everyone on here and I honestly want to keep pushing myself to get into a better place with this blog. Since January, I have experienced tons of growth on here and feel as though I could be doing way more, way better. Changes won’t come overnight, but I really do plan on giving my blog a little reboot, reintroducing some of my favorite series, and really putting in the necessary work to turn this blog from a casual journal to something really great.
I hope to start rolling out some new content and getting back on my A-game real soon, but I would like to take this moment to thank everyone who has chosen to follow me this year (and at any point really). Your ongoing support has made this whole blogging experience something that has truly shaped me into the person I am today, and I hope I can return the favor!