May 1st 2019
This month is really just one big “?”
I have been standing on my head for a few minutes now trying to come up with a good idea for a post idea, but I am completely at a loss. I feel like this loss isn’t just in regards to blogging but my whole life in general. This month is bound to be one of the most disjointed and confusing months I will have for a really long time (hopefully).
So much is changing so quickly and I don’t really have the capacity to be as creative as I would like to be so I literally just said “F**k it” and I am just writing a bit of a train of thought sort of post today. Life is confusing me. I am writing this on April 21st because right now I am in North Carolina closing on my new house which may or may not have wifi, who the heck knows?
I am hoping that by the time this goes up, that a few things I have been stressing about have cleared themselves up. I also hope I am in a good mood and that I am happy. There is a lot going down next week that I am super nervous about and I am hoping they turned out okay!
May is gonna be a weird month for me. I have 13 more days in my childhood home, then I am living at Angie’s for a little over a week, then I am driving all the way down to North Carolina for 10.5 hours. Then the rest of the month is kind of up in the air honestly. I am not sure what I am doing, who will be around for me, and what kinda stuff will happen when I move.
I can’t even really plan posts ahead because I literally don’t know shit. I’m so sorry if this is the first post of mine that you’re reading because it is incredibly messy and not at all what I usually post on here but right now I can barely form a proper sentence, let alone create a post with substance.
Writing usually helps me destress, but lately I have sort of just been feeling uninspired because my room is slowly becoming emptier, life has become busier, and I am freakin’ tired.
Lets all hope that I am having a good day today.