January 15th 2022
I am my own writer’s block.
I have come to a recent realization that puts my inability to upkeep my blog into perspective. I am in my own way. Back in 2016-2018, I was very calculated with how I posted on here. I had a blogging calendar, schedule, and action items associated with getting each individual project I had in mind done. However, after a few large moves and life changes, I found it increasingly difficult to maintain this site in the way I once had. Unfortunately, due to my own internalized perfectionism, I struggled to put out any content at all since it felt redundant, uncalculated, and pointless.
This fixation on creating a “professional” feel to my blog not only hurt the authenticity of my content, but made it near impossible for me to write what I wanted to. That is why recently I have decided that I am going to stop overthinking it. I want to write. I want to say whatever is running around inside of my head, whether or not it is written for an audience or just for myself. I want to write about things that I find important and relevant to my life today instead of trying to keep up the illusion that, after almost 6 years of having this site, I still have the same interests, views, and expectations.
I look back on my old content super fondly and I love a lot of what I created but, I am just not in the place I need to be in order to be creating that level of content at this point in my life. That isn’t to say that I don’t ever plan to put out more planned and coordinated content ever again but, right now, I would rather focus on getting consistent with expressing myself again than to force myself into big lofty projects that I will most definitely dip out on.
So, that being said, I really want to make this blog more about mental health and self-care moving forward because it is not only a topic I enjoy writing about, but also a subject I am looking to educate myself more on this year. I am not really sure who out there is still reading but, if you do and have any mental health related topics you would like me to discuss, I would love some suggestions or prompts to get my gears turning.
I am super excited to hopefully bring more content to this blog in the near future and into 2022!