Saying “Yes” to Hope- 2019 Diaries

March 29th 2019

As March comes to an end, I want to take some time to look back at the month that flew by…

This is my third 2019 Diaries post and I can honestly say that I look forward to looking back on a full year’s worth of these! Both January and February offered me quite a few new experiences, challenges, and lessons to learn, and March has been no different! March has reintroduced me to the idea of hope and has offered me the opportunity to rid myself of some heavy baggage as I move into spring.

So here is my March in a few bullet points:

• My friends threw me a surprise party
• I went to see Dear Evan Hansen on Broadway with my mom
• I started trying to get back into reading at night (little steps)
• I told work when my last day would be
• I spent a lot of time going through things to pack

I’m gonna be honest, March felt like more of a month of internal work than external happenings. I spent a lot more time focusing on things internally than I really focused on my social life. I did still see friends and go to work and live normally, more or less, but I feel like my attention was focused more on squashing limiting beliefs that I have been holding onto.

The theme of this month was really hope for me. I never really give myself the opportunity to feel hopeful because I have a bit of a pessimistic view of certain things as a result of past experiences. Things like my move and just my place in life in general have left me feeling nervous, but I am starting to allow myself to believe in the power of positive thinking.

Instead of letting myself believe in the worst case scenario, I have started talking as though the things I want are already mine and I will not waver unless things change or fall through. I figure it takes less energy to be hopeful than it does to consistently make myself sad and anxious about things that haven’t even happened yet.

To touch on the things I physically did this month, I started the month with a really nice surprise party with my friends. This was my first ever surprise party and I was super happy and honored to have such great friends. I had an amazing time and was so grateful.

Another experience I was super grateful for was getting the opportunity to see a Broadway show with my mom. My mom and I are super close and love going to see shows together. Dear Evan Hansen is a show we have been dying to see for quite a while and to finally get to see it with her meant a lot to me. I only cried twice during the show and I was proud of myself, haha.

A few things have happened this month that I am not going to mention now and may mention if they pan out, but also might not. I think something I’m learning is that it is better to hustle in silence and let the payoff speak for itself.

To touch on my goals from last month, I didn’t really accomplish as much as I would have liked. I didn’t complete the 100 abs challenge (but want to get back into it), I didn’t dedicate as much time as I would have liked to blogging, but I did keep my credit bill low and I did dedicate more time to reflection and getting outside.

Here are my new goals for April:

• Hold it together (lol)
• Get back into working out at home, even a little
• Get my room packed
• Get my new tattoo
• Remain hopeful
• Spend less time in bed

Hope March’s Mercury RX didn’t hit any of you too hard! What are your goals for March?

Jess~