Free Time

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It seems like free time is always eluding me…or maybe I’m eluding it…

If you’ve ever listened to “Seasons of Love” from the Broadway show Rent, you would know that a year is made up of 525,600 minutes. In hours, that is about 8,760 hours.  8,760 hours in a year and I still feel like I am grasping as free time with very little luck.

A year is 365 days and you would think that with all of that time I could find a little to get some important tasks done, but I find myself constantly struggling to find hours in my day. I can’t completely blame life for this though because I spend a lot of my time creating stuff for myself to do and that stuff gets in the way of other stuff and my whole life sort of just blows up into a sea of highlighted calendar boxes and no room for free time.

I’m not sure if this is a situation in anyone else’s life, but I always find that I have a million and one things that need to get done when I am busy beyond belief, then when I have nothing to do, I don’t know what to do with myself. Like, there are just some days where I wake up and have absolutely nothing planned and I sink deeper in the softness of my bed and do nothing except write the occasional blog post, which I always seem to find the time to do.

Which brings me to my next theory about free time and it’s that I am destroying my free time with my own unwillingness. I think this theory is half true because sometimes I legitimately can’t make time to do certain things, even blog. But the times that I can find time to blog, I could be using to take pictures for my blog or read my books, but I don’t feel like I have the time for those things. Why? Because I feel like the thought of stopping is a larger roadblock for me than actually completing my intended task is.

Whenever I think about taking blog photos, I always think, “ugh I am going to have to drive and then I am going to have to find somewhere to take photos, alone, and then I am going to have to come all the way home and upload them, alone, and I don’t even have someone to take full body shots for me”. I think it is the alone part that keeps me from doing a lot of things. I don’t go out to take pictures because I don’t want to do it alone. I don’t go out and buy books I need because I don’t want to go to the store alone without company. It is not that I can’t go alone, I do stuff alone all of the time, I just get lazy without the motivation of having a companion.

When it comes to reading books, I just think that’s laziness or lack of mood. I need to be in a certain frame of mind to want to read and as much as I love reading, that window of mood is really small and often at inconvenient times. Plus, finding something I want to read is really hard because I am quite picky. So, reading is a 60% “in the reading mood at times where I don’t have free time” and 40% pure lazy.

So, I guess what I am trying to say is, I elude free time just as much as it eludes me. We are like two friends playing phone tag, but neither of us are willing to leave a message. I think what I need to do to fix this problem is metaphorically “leave a message”. I need to take some time to sit down and plan out my next date with free time and what I am going to do on that date and how I am going to make that work with my life right now. Currently, I should have more free time than ever since I only have one job.

If anyone has good tips for working with free time, leave them in the comments because I would love some ideas.

Jess~

 

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jessofearth

Jess, 22, yogi, believer in things, book worm, shy, aspiring human of Earth. I like to spend my time on a yoga mat, with a pen in my hand, my nose in a book, or behind the lens of a camera. I love to write about anything and everything. Book reviews, travel diaries, and abstract thoughts~

4 thoughts on “Free Time

  1. I am a little confused. I can’t tell whether you have free time or not. It seems you are generally a busy person and when you have free time, you don’t know what to do with it. I would suggest picking up a hobby. Some things I have tried in my free time are journalling, swimming, getting a massage , facial or a haircut and watching movies. In your case, you should pick things that you can do with someone but I would suggest spreading it out – do some things with people and do some things alone. Keep a balance and that should help. If you always want to do to everything with someone that’s gonna prevent you from doing anything at all.

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    1. The issue that I am having is more that I don’t use my free time as productively as I could. I go to yoga 5-7 days a week and I blog 3 days a week and those keep me busy along with work, but sometimes I find it difficult to find the free time to get things done, whether it be doing my laundry or going to the store to get something or taking new pictures for blog posts. And the only issue I have with doing things alone is blog pictures because it is something I hate doing alone, otherwise I’m rather independent (I’ve been doing yoga alone for 2+ years now). What it mostly comes down to is utilizing what little free time I have to being productive. I find that when I am given free time, I can never think of what I need to get done and I end up doing nothing until I get super busy and remember all of the little things I need to get done.

      Thank you for all of the great suggestions of ways to better utilize my free time. The part about getting a massage or a facial sounds like a super nice way to treat yourself in your free time and I should REALLY get around to that 🙂

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      1. Maybe you need to be more lenient about what productive meams to you. I would suggest making a list of things that come to your mind when u r busy so that when you have nothing to do you can look at it and get ideas. Evernote is a great app that helps keep multiple lists

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      2. Thank you, I like that idea! I used to do that when I was in school but ever since I graduated I fell out of the habit! I think its a really good habit to make a to do list.

        And I agree, I need to be more lenient on myself too

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