Daydreams & Finding Me

September 24th 2017

And those dizzy stargazers, who dreamed of the black, kept their heads in the clouds and they never looked back~ Ryn Weaver // New Constellations

I like to tell stories in my head. When life gets too overwhelming, I think of what my life would be like if I continue to work hard at my passions and live some of my wildest dreams. I make up these stories where every conversation, interaction, experience, lesson, is all in my control. I feel like that is the best and worst part of daydreams, everything goes my way.

I love the rush of a good daydream, where I take any free moment of my time to sit and stare off into space in silence, enjoying the story I am telling myself. However, I understand that not everything will go my way. I understand that in the real world, people don’t stick to the script you wish they would. Life doesn’t always go 100% as planned and sometimes, the opportunities you wish for just don’t present themselves to you…at least, not in the ways you hoped they would.

So why daydream then? Well it is simple, daydreaming is a fantastic way to find yourself and understand your truest and deepest desires. Does it mean you will get everything you will desire just because you dream it up? No, of course not, this is a daydream, not a fairytale. But, daydreaming of the things you want is a great first step to understanding yourself.

My daydreams often consist of traveling the world, being independent and spending time in unfamiliar places alone, doing tons of yoga, meeting tons of interesting and wise people, and having enough money to support these adventures…plus I usually have a really hot bod.

Now this daydream isn’t impossible, but there are definitely specifics that aren’t possible at all. I am not going to have an endless supply of money to go gallivanting around the world teaching yoga classes. However, I CAN work hard to build up my self-branding enough to be offered opportunities to travel through yoga. I won’t be making millions of dollars, but I will be making enough to grant me the opportunities I want within reason.

I can have that hot bod I dream of too, with a lot of work and a lot less french fries. I try to make my daydreams a reflection of my potential real life. I don’t like daydreaming about things that are so outlandish that they will never happen because I will never want to wake up to my real life! My whole point in daydreaming is to make my life the life I have been dreaming about!

One of the weird recurring themes in my day dreams is exploring places alone. If you knew me personally, you would know that the idea of going anywhere new, alone, fills me with absolute dread and anxiety. Why does daydream Jessica love being alone so much?

Well, after doing a bit of soul searching, the answer is actually quite simple. I admire independent people, I almost envy them actual. The feeling of freedom and not feeling tied down to my own fear like a dog chained to a pole is something that I ache for! I look at people who just enjoy time with themselves comfortable and wish I could do the same without feeling like my skin was about to walk off my body. Another reason I feel like I spend time alone in daydreams is that I want to own my own experiences.

That sounds really weird in writing, but allow to to explain. I find that a lot of my experiences have been centered around the people I was with. I could be at a concert with thousands of people and only remember my friend standing next to me. Although the concert was an awesome experience in itself and I love my friend to death, I feel like being alone would add to the whole excitement of it all.

My most recent daydream has been about me going to the city alone, meeting someone new and interesting and exploring for the day. I almost feel like my desire to be alone stems from my desire to meet and explore the wonderful world of new people. I will admit, the person I end up meeting in this daydream, although they are a stranger in the general sense, is someone I am familiar with and admire deeply (from afar, on the internet and such, where I do the most admiring of strangers).

So this daydream follow my formula that I previously discussed, I am a yoga teacher, in the city, alone, just finished teaching a yoga class, wandered around and met this interesting person, and spent a day exploring. In this daydream, I am an accomplished yogi, blogger, and vlogger/YouTuber. To some, this may sound like some silly delusion, and maybe they’re right, but this daydream is also a huge insight to me as a person.

This dream shows that:

1. Yoga is, above all, my true passion/dream career (despite my lofty resume and my MBA).
2. I want independence to allow myself to explore the world around me, even the world close to home.
3. Blogging and writing are things that I want to be known for in my future life and I want writing to remain part of my identity as long I continue to love it.
4. I want to get back into videography. I have mentioned this in countless posts, but I really do miss making YouTube videos. It was my passion for years and it was something that I was genuinely proud of when I was younger. I feel like I have such beautiful ideas to share and my daydreams are just fueling that fire even more.

So I challenge you this, take some time, either in the comments section (because I love reading people’s insights) or in a notebook or wherever you’re comfortable, and write down your most common daydream. What does that daydream say about you?

No matter how crazy and wild this daydream is, where does it hold true in your personal life? Your day dream could be about meeting Leonardo DiCaprio in a coffee shop, falling in love, getting married in Paris, and having 3 beautiful babies together, and I can guarantee that you can still find something out about yourself in there!

With an open mind and a lot of heart, you can make your daydreams a reality~

Dream on,

Jess~