June 13th 2018
I’m just a little bit caught in the middle.
I’m at this weird point in my life where I feel like everything and nothing is going on all at once. I am feeling simultaneously bored and overwhelmed. I feel like I am constantly running but I also feel like I am going nowhere at all. I am in this sort of life-limbo where I am out of one phase and simply waiting to see where life will take me next.
Many view limbo to be this neutral space in between but no one seems to see how uncomfortable it is to be there. Limbo is the gap between what has already happened and a million different “unknowns”. In the more spiritual sense, many consider limbo to be the waiting room between heaven and hell, but that holding space is where a lot of tension builds and as a result, I’m feeling stuck.
Writing is not coming as easy, motivation to do things I normally enjoy is few and far between these days, and I sort of just feel like I’m going through the motions with very few options to propel myself forward. I get into these slumps every once and a while but lately it seems as though the world as a whole is in a slump so the energy feels off.
And this off energy has really effected my writing in particular. Even now, as much as I want to right this post, I feel like I am in this sort of fog where the words I am thinking and the words I am typing just aren’t matching up. So, as of late, I have been writing more short-form pieces on my phone to get out all of the little things I want to say and I am hoping to show those pieces at some point this month to show myself and everyone else that I haven’t been slacking on my writing, just picking up a new medium.
With all that being said, I am working on figuring out how to make myself feel unstuck. So, I am going to use this post to work through what I know about my current situation and what I hope to know, as well as what I plan to do to get my groove back, so to speak.
- I KNOW I am writing things I am passionate about.
- I KNOW that I am still passionate about my blog.
- I DON’T KNOW what I want to do with my life.
- I DON’T KNOW why I am in a rut right now.
- I PLAN TO spend more time writing short pieces.
- I PLAN TO read more for inspiration and as a form of self care.
- I PLAN TO get outside and search for inspiration in the world around me.
- I KNOW things will get better
- I DON’T KNOW when