November 19th 2018
This month is flying by and I’m trying to catch it while it’s here~
Going into November this year, I expected to have a lot of down time to just chill and get ready for the storm that is Blogmas coming up in a little over a week and a half! However, I feel like November is breezing by and I have barely made a dent in everything I need to get done!
During this time last year, I feel as though I had accomplished so much more in terms of Blogmas prep and even got a jump start on enjoying the holidays. However, this year, everything seems to be moving way too fast and I am chasing my own tail in an attempt to keep up. I am barely halfway through my Blogmas prep with the month already half over and I have not felt even an ounce prepared for the holidays.
So today, I decided to sit down and talk a little bit about time. Time is this weird creature. It is inconsistent, fickle, and a little selfish. It runs away from you when you need it most and lingers when you wish it would pick up the pace. It is both an objective and subjective thing. It is a construct and a mental state. Time is sneaky and strange.
We are told that the hours on the clock must dictate how we live, but every passing hour feels different from the last. An hour of fun feels like no time at all and an hour of tedious work can drag on forever. But how does one explain the passage of a whole month that moved so fast no one even realized it was more than half over?
You see, to some, November may feel like this dragging thing before Christmas but, to me, November feels like the only chance I have to get on top of my blogging game and get ready for the final month of the year. I think it is escaping me because it knows I am taking advantage of it too much. Time is running because I need to appreciate how much I have and not waste it on stupid things.
However, I think there is another reason that time is running by, because I am on my way to change. I think time is more eager than I am for the changes that are awaiting my next year. I would give everything to just stop time in moments and enjoy what I have left here. In my childhood home. In my hometown. With my friends. This is the time that I wish I could pause life or rewind to get a little bit of extra time.
I am simultaneously eager for time to pass to bring on new changes and dreading losing it once it is gone. I am excited for new adventures, but feel like I am racing the clock to get in every moment of life I have left here.
November…please slow down.